I came to realise, just a couple of years ago, that I had spent my whole entire life, playing small. I am already way into what some people call their twilight years and so one would imagine that this realization should have come a lot sooner, but it didn’t.
My sister and I, just two years apart, lived through many experiences that I would never wish on any child. It didn’t matter that she was older than me, we always were able to protect each other and help each other through the many traumatic experiences we lived through and believe me, there was a lot! It’s almost as if we were forced through no actual choice of our own, to live our lives so closely and I strongly believe that somewhere within that beautiful relationship, we lost sight of our individual selves.
Through circumstance we grew apart and at first glance, that feels particularly sad. But, there has been so much that has come out of this apart-ness. And the greatest of all is that I have come to understand that I can do my life on my own, without permission from anyone, without approval from anyone. I can make choices for myself only, without having to take into account, someone else and how it would make them feel. There is no way for me to describe the sense of freedom that this realization has brought for me.
However, the flip side is that I have found myself in a position where I realized also, that through keeping myself small, people don’t really know me. I was always someone’s sister, I was never Glynis. I have been on my spiritual journey since the 70’s. I became a practicing medium in the late 1990’s. I have been teaching, counselling, advising, guiding and doing readings for 20 years and it is only in the last few years, that I am recognized for what I do. The struggle has been real.
I understand now how much I always gave my power away. How much I never let my light shine. I have known my spirit guide all my life yet I have kept her to myself without telling too many people about her and the wonderful connection that we have. She has been my rock and my anchor in my life and now in this new awakening for me, I share her with everyone around me. I tell everyone about her and acknowledge how much she has led me through my lifetime and how much she has led me to this point in my life.
It is never too late for us to live the life that we were intended to. I’m not saying that up until now, my life was one big farce. I know very well that I chose all the lessons along the way. I know that I chose the people to experience those lessons with and so much of what I have experienced has resulted in me being me. I think a big difference now is that I love myself. I like myself. I love what I do. I love that I can be of assistance in other people’s lives. I am honoured that people share with me the very intimate moments of their life so that together, Oshavaria and myself, can inspire them to work through their challenges.
I say this all the time. Our lives are meant to beautiful. We are meant to be happy. We are meant to feel fulfilled at the end of the day. We owe it to ourselves to find our passion and to live our passion and to extend that passion out to others so that they can see the beauty in themselves. We owe it to ourselves to be compassionate with ourselves and others. We owe it to ourselves to accept that we are human at this time and that we will make mistakes, because it is in the making of mistakes that we learn. If our lives were pure smooth-sailing, we wouldn’t learn anything. If we were never challenged to stand in front of the mirror and confront who we are, we would never get to see on the one hand, our flaws and on the hand, our beautiful shing light.
In love and light
Glynis
glynis@spiritconnection.co.za
Author: Spirit Connection
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