Taken from The Mystery Experience by Tim Freke
For me, meditation is an opportunity to take time off from the pressures of living in time and sink deeply into the mystery experience.
I can’t force this, but I can be open to it. And when the mystery experience arises it feels like the most wonderful gift … underserved and gratefully received.
I appreciate whatever I experience in meditation. Sometimes there’s simply a sense of stillness and peace. Other times, meditation is so wonderful I find it very hard to put into words. I’m going to attempt to describe my experience of meditation, but I don’t want to set up expectations for you. I simply want to share what happens for me… as one explorer of life to another.
When I practise meditation I dissolve into the deep mystery. Then I understand why the Gnostics call the mystery ‘fullness’, because the emptiness is full of pulsating energy. The stillness is effervescent with vitality.
I understand why the Hindus talk about the primordial vibration of ‘om’, because I feel as if I’m merging with a low vibration that underlies all that is. I am consumed by ommmmmm….
I understand why the Gnostics describe the mystery of being as a ‘dazzling darkness’, because the emptiness seems to be sparkling with ‘dark light’.
I understand what people mean by the ‘sound of the silence’, because the silence has the sound of a million miniscule tinkling bells. And I feel submerged by waves of ringing, which are rising and falling in the void.
I understand what the devotional mystics mean by loving God as the divine ‘Beloved’, because I find myself falling in love with the vast unconscious field of being, which is the source of all.
When I reach within, it feels as if the deep self is reaching out to welcome me. It’s as if we’re lovers who’ve been longing to b together… to caress each other … to be one with each other.
Dissolving into the mystery of being
I can’t practise deep awake meditation right now and describe what happens, because it necessitates I withdraw my attention from the sensual world. So I’m going to remember my meditation yesterday as if it was happening now and share the experience with you. Then you can find the right time to experiment with deep awake mediation for yourself. I’ve gone through the steps involved earlier in this chapter.
I’ve retreated into the quiet of my bedroom where I won’t be disturbed.
I am making my body comfortable.
I am becoming relaxed and alert.
I am conscious of the room around me and the sounds outside the window.
I am conscious of what a wonder life is and how mysterious it is to be alive.
I close my eyes and let go of my story.
I am intensely conscious of the present moment.
I enter the delicious sensation of breathing. As I do this, my body begins to soften and my mind begins to clam.
I am entering the beautiful textures of my breath… the cool air coming into my body and the warm air leaving my body.
I am the spacious presence of awareness presencing breathing.
Now I am turning my attention deeply within.
I am conscious of a ‘naked conception and a blind feeling of being’.
It feels to me as if I am sinking further and further back into the mystery of being.
I am dissolving my attention into the primal ground from which my conscious attention is arising.
I am immersed in the primordial vibration of the dazzling darkness.
The stillness is full of ommmmm…
The emptiness is alive with presence.
I am dancing in the vibrating stillness.
There’s an oceanic feeling of oneness.
I feel as if I’m dissolving in an ocean of bliss.
I am enfolded within the safe arms of the Beloved.
All is one in boundless love.
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