I’ve Been Where You Are. You Can Be Here.

The sun is on my back. I’m watching the deep blue waves rolling in; white foam forms as they curl to crash on each other. The clouds are in the far distance; the wind is coming from the west. Around here, we know we know to enjoy the sun while we can.

I often find myself welling up with tears when I go to the ocean. The awareness of my life situation becomes so clear when I’m there. I’ve yet to accept the fact that I actually live on the ocean. That little nugget hasn’t sunk in yet; I don’t care if it ever sinks in. The magic of the disbelief, I just enjoy being here right now.

I started thanking God for all the people in my life. The people who have been there for me as I have expanded on this incredible journey. The people I have met and become close to over the last few years, it’s impossible to describe the power of these relationships. It cannot be done. When you connect with someone from this vibrational space, it’s not like any human relationship you have experienced. It’s a soul-level bonding. It’s a connection realizing you know the exact same things, yet you received them from different sources. It’s the forever stuff.

The miracles keep happening, and I am forever in gratitude.

I’m thanking God for blessing me with these relationships, basking in gratitude for my life. Of course, it doesn’t feel real; it will never feel real, which is perfectly fine. It keeps the magic alive.

I realize how rare I am. I honestly can’t imagine anyone else knowing what it feels like to be this happy, this full-of-gratitude, all the time. The fact that this is a thing. Every single one of us can be right where I am. We don’t even try to get here because no one believes it. The people who know me and see me the most often, they get it. They have never seen any other side of me because there isn’t one. Who I am in front of them is who I am always. Morning, noon, and night. I can’t not be where I am.

When you live in this state of happiness, you will never be ill again. You are in complete control of your health and your life, all by deciding to be happy.

But you fight to stay small. You argue for your limitations. You just don’t understand. You don’t want to understand. No one wants to even have a little peek into my life because they fear that they will see something that they cannot unsee. They will see something that they cannot let go of. They will find a curiosity they didn’t have before, and they won’t be able to shake it. This is why you turn your heads the other way.

You don’t want to know this because you know your life will never be the same again. If you really stepped out of your life for five minutes and took a look at it, you would see that maybe, there was room for improvement.

When you’re in the middle of something, you cannot see the muck all around that you unknowingly trudge through every day. When you finally remove yourself from a situation, and you look back and see what you walked away from, you wonder what took you so long. Everything is suddenly so clear. Every single time. Everything for you can only get better.

Life is made of a steady stream of choices. Every choice you make trickles down to others and other future choices. If you make each one from inside your gut, you only use intuition; each decision brings you closer to the beauty you are walking toward. If you factor in how other people might react to your decision, you are not coming from your heart. This journey does take prisoners. You can’t let your choices come from the head – and ego. You are going down a slippery slope. This is a lesson you are not done learning.

These are simple choices you need to make for yourself and honor them. You are not hurting anyone by following your arrow. By not doing it, you are hurting yourself. This is a very individualized game, and you can only play when you are ready. You have to step onto the board, and you have to make a move. You don’t want your old life back. You want to climb up the tower and see everything from the top. You have no idea what you cannot see from where you stand.

Before I turned to head home from the beach, I felt happy tears start to fall from my eyes once again. I realized I am living in an ocean view home on the Oregon coast – and it was something I created. By the choices I made and my thoughts, I am where I dreamed of being.

I felt so full of gratitude and blessed beyond belief… at that moment, I realized that I am blessed, but I had to work for this. I had to make choices that most people will never make. We hold on so dear to people and things in our lives. When we are guided to step away, we park our spirit. We can’t risk losing what is so familiar.

There is something beautiful just around the corner waiting for you. It is a mere choice or two away. You see what is before you, and it is all you can see. You must realize that you can’t be experiencing all that there is to experience. What do you have to lose?

You must trust and surrender. Follow what your higher self has been screaming at you to do.

You see how happy I am all the time, and my life has fallen into precisely what I wanted it to be. If all of us made these very individual choices, following our guidance, we would all be where I am. If I got here, every single human has this same potential.

I have been where you are. Every single one of you.

If you’d like highlights:

Physically abused. Abandoned. Sexually abused. Held out of a helicopter, forced to eat Alka Seltzer with a handkerchief tied around our mouths. Fed our pet rabbits for dinner. Watched our kitten be thrown against the wall, and die during silent dinner – was not allowed to move or cry. Watched our mom take furniture to the head, and fists to the side. Watched my dad pound my mother’s skull into the tile. Watched my mom shoot my dad. Ran for our lives. I’ve been there. This is just the tip of the iceberg.

I’ve been where you are. I am you. Just like that, you can be here.

Cari Palmer

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Cari Palmer Bio:

If I hadn’t lived the many phases of my life, I wouldn’t believe it could all happen in one lifetime. All I imagined after giving up my victim card was being a writer/speaker for Hay House. I was the queen of self-help and I was ready to change lives. Fast forward a decade or two and now, after re-membering who we are and why we are here, self-help was a lifetime ago.

Following my guidance has brought me to a place I couldn’t ever imagine! I have mastered living in the present moment. I have become a Zen-like creature. Once you feel this good in every moment, you can never go back. When you realize we create our own reality, why would we make any part of this thing we call life miserable?

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